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Tuesday, 24 July 2007

  • Updating is like slowly roasting my skinned balls atop red hot embers

    Well, i'm still job-hunting. I had an actual job offer that i turned down plus a number of other applications still pending. i can't do anything but keep my fingers and what other appendages i have crossed. anyway, being unemployed sucks but i hope to reverse my fortunes soon.

    I can't stay online long. my minute finances prohibit me from spending too much merely maintaining an online existence.

    Here's some pieces for ya. i ain't satisfied with the work though. they are nowhere near the sort of quality i put out circa 2003-04. but i feel the need to post 'em just the same to somehow revive the creative juices.

    later.

    Metamphantasy | 16-Jul-07

    You will be fine
    No, it won't be long now
    before you hear the voices in your head.
    Inhale the mist,
    forget all your sorrows,
    Freedom lies in the abyss.
    Befriend your shadows,
    darkness is your light,
    go and find comfort in your demise.
    Ignited bliss,
    white smoke that surrounds you,
    suck it in and hold your breath.
    Artificial,
    crystal pure on silver foil,
    dissolving in yellow flame.
    Poison residue,
    your mind's journey into
    chemical oblivion.
    Crystal pure...
    this rock of ages,
    so fuckin' spectacular.


    These Chains

    This day...of all the damnedest days,
    You've come to make me realize
    This love...my place of solitude
    was one big fucking mistake.

    You left me here to wonder
    Wearing this stupid face
    You left me one reminder...these chains.

    This day...of all the damnedest days,
    I fed my ashes to the fire
    This love...just throw it all away
    It was all a fucking mistake.

    You left me here to wonder
    Wearing this stupid face
    You left me one reminder...these chains.

    Again...just when I thought I learned
    Can I avoid this shit and press rewind?
    What now? Delude myself with lies?
    Pretend that everything is fine?

    I don't want no bullshit answers
    I have myself to blame
    You left me one reminder...these chains.

     

Monday, 25 June 2007

  • Job

    So there was this company I applied at around 2 weeks ago. There's this writing job vacancy there so I checked it out. Didn't hear from them afterwards so I assumed I didn't make the cut. Earlier today though, I got a call from them asking me to drop by for another interview tomorrow evening.

    Damn, I hope I snag this bitch since I've been a bum for far too long. Keeping my fingers crossed.

    Wish me luck.

     

Wednesday, 13 June 2007

  • OMG WTF??

    It's been a horrible past year. i am currently unemployed and have only loose change in my pocket. went in for an interview earlier today and im keeping my fingers crossed.

    nothing has really worked out as i hoped. im worse off now than i was one and a half years ago.

    im back to square one, and i need to jump-start my career once again and get my life in gear cuz it's it has been one shitty ride after another. my entrepreneurial journey simply crashed and burned. i just broke up with my girlfriend which simply added insult to injury and now im on my second week looking for work and i have no job offers yet.

    WTF????

    i'll tell you more about what the hell happened next time. in summary, in 2005 i had a few months stint as a porn writer for some outsourcing company. around october 2005, i left my job to set up a business with my friend which never really took off. last month, my gf and i split up. now, im a fucking bum with debts to pay and im desperate. sleepless, restless, and pissed off.

    man, and i need drink...

    later.

Monday, 07 August 2006

  • CRASH

    it was just last saturday, the night before my flight back to davao. i hailed a taxi at project 6, sat at the front seat, and went on my way back to the office in makati. first thing i noticed was that the driver was driving pretty fast on a rainy night.

    i wasn't that alarmed, but was thinking he was a wee bit daring on a slippery road. anyway, a few minutes later, the friggin' taxi slammed right into the rear of a parked dump truck at full speed at the corner of east avenue and EDSA.

    good thing i was watching the road and had my seat belt on (to think that i'm not very consistent in using the seatbelt at all times). anyway, i saw the rear of the dump truck loom large before my eyes before i managed to brace myself for the impact. and then BOOM! windshield shattering all around me, my chest slamming against the seatbelt with sufficient force to blow the air out of my lungs.

    damn, it hurt. i was moaning a few seconds later before i blurted out to the driver "You son of a bitch, you were driving too fast!"

    i was so fuckin angry, and then i turned to my left and saw him slumped over, with blood trickling down his head, and felt sorry for the idiot. 

    it took only a few minutes for the traffic enforcers and an ambulance to arrive cuz we were at a major intersection. by that time, i was already up and walking around talking to a friend of mine on my cellphone (which by the way, flew right out the windshield. Good thing i was able to find the damn phone and that it still worked).

    anyway, i felt fine and hardly felt the pain in my chest and neck (adrenaline rush was still kicking in). i went to east avenue med center just a few seconds away to get an x-ray and a few hours later the doc told me i was ok, no internal injuries to be worried about, and i was able to catch my early morning flight out to davao. the driver, on the other hand, was obviously drunk, and dazed from the crash. he had blood all over him. the medics found blood on my face, shirt and pants but upon later inspection it was concluded that it was the driver's blood, not mine.  

    i felt , and am still feeling, like a total wreck. i have difficulty breathing deeply and my shoulders and neck are strained. but, it's all good. the experience was, i admit, morbidly exciting. nothing like a good old-fashioned vehicular accident to add some spice into my life.

    oh, and i witnessed a fellow human being die right in front of me in the emergency ward that night. he had several injuries, including a bullet wound, undoubtedly a police salvage victim whose execution went awry, cuz he was still breathing when he should be very dead instead. he was probably able to escape his executioners by jumping off a high place or from a moving vehicle (the other injuries were consistent with those scenarios) but not before getting a bullet in his gut.

    oh well, if there's one thing i learned out of all this - you can lose your life just like that. if i didn't have my seatbelt on, i'd be in a morgue at an ill-operated government hospital, right next to the salvage victim who had a a piece of paper taped to his chest - MR. X, 8/6/06, 1:15 AM.

     

Thursday, 13 July 2006

  • davao

    so i've been in davao for around one and a half months now and its great here. i'm doing some shit for a friend but hopefully i'll be back in manila next week.

    davao's generally peaceful & quiet. i've been to a beach, tried out the bars and met new friends. oh, and the girls are hot  ;  )

    anyway, i've been very very busy and a lot has changed in my life the past several months. who knows, when i have time i'll probably tell you all about it.

    later.

     

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